The start of the New Year is the moment to reflect. So let me take you along to where I am at the moment.At work, things are going really well. Last year I still had multiple roles, but from now on I can fully focus on strategic work. Also, after months of experimenting, we are ready to fully adopt AI in our workflow. It really is amazing what we can do on the level of code generation, but also as a sparring partner. Putting your ideas to AI and then asking it to come up with all possible criticism of your idea is so powerful.
I have never been more prepared for my meetings, ready to answer any question because AI has already asked them of me.
You’re not reading this for my work side, though, it’s all about the kink! When I look back at 2025, I think Mistress and I have fallen a bit into a routine. Of course I listen to her and do whatever she asks; we have a real female-led relationship and we both feel very comfortable in our roles.
I still find it so beautiful that when I do or say something wrong, minutes later the whip comes out and I’m in a world of pain. It really clears my mind to see Mistress point, and that I can only accept it. When I do, the pain stops, and when I kiss her feet, my world makes sense again. Life is so much more beautiful because of the power of the whip. No days of cold war, just pain and forgiveness.
We haven’t played a lot last year, but we did have a few intense moments where I was tied up in my leather body bag with no way to escape. My head secured in the queening chair with Mistress on top of it. My body connected to the electrics and Mistress slowly turning up the dials. Electrics are so powerful, the little box in Mistress’s hands can cause me more pain than I can deal with. When Mistress whips me, at one point, when I accept it and my mind is clear, I drift into subspace and the pain becomes pure bliss.
Electrics are pure torture; I can’t clear my mind, it goes through everything. I know that Mistress is only giving me maybe a maximum of 20%, so there is much more pain that she can give me. It is so powerful knowing that she controls my body, my mind, my pleasure. After all these years I still crave her control over me.
Okay, time to look at 2026, what do I want to change? Not a lot, of course. I know I am living the life many of you dream of. I think it is exactly there that I can improve. Like many subs, I put the responsibility for our dynamic fully in Mistress’s hands. But that is not entirely fair we both are busy with work and the many projects Mistress does. I always say I don’t want to be a brat; I don’t like not doing what Mistress wants, and I am sure she will deal with it severely.
What I can do, and will do, is be more proactive in my servitude. I know what Mistress wants, and I can do it more often before she asks. That will free up her mind for other things.
I think she is the most beautiful person on earth,my Goddess. I should worship her more to let her know she is my everything: my wife, my Mistress, the love of my life.
So yes, this is my reflection on 2025 going into 2026. Let me know yours!