Locktober 2020

Joris Locked for Madame Caramel

It was the first of October at 0:01 am and Mistress told me to go to the bathroom and put the chastity belt on and to come back with the lock and keys for her. It was the official start of Locktober 2020. Mistress likes me locked. After all it is all about her pleasure and no man can compete to the superior Doxy. But I can’t complain she allows me an orgasm on average every two weeks. More if we film for her onlyfans.

Normally I always fly back and forward to London and my preferred device is the holy trainer as it goes undetected at security. Mistress can then keep the keys while we are away from each other. But this year is different, Mistress and I are most of the time together and I don’t fly anymore. So it was time for a change.

I looked around for a metal device. I have several I both from China but after one or two days they all start to hurt. The made-to-measure device all had very long waiting times. Guess lock down also means lock up for many people. I went for the bon4 metal. It is a beautiful cage, with many options in ring size and spacers. I went for the same set-up as I used to have with my CB6000 and it fits perfectly. It doesn’t hurt during normal wear, because of the bars it is easy to clean. But most importantly it looks amazing on me.

Seeing your cock in the tight metal cage, feels way better then in plastic. Mistress also likes the look. It has the same security as any other ball trapped device. I of course haven’t tried to get out of it. One day Mistress will give me a chastity piercing to remove any temptation.

The process of my chastity month is a bit different then normal. Normally I try to ignore it as much as possible and that works very well for me. But having Mistress in the house makes it so way more difficult. She is often dressed up in the most amazing outfits to film for her onlyfans. I find myself often looking at her beautiful ass. The bon4 has no mercy for me, no erections allowed.

It is very difficult having Mistress around and teasing me all day, but now she is a few days to London and I can only think of her wishing she was back. The hole strategy to ignore my chastity is not working this time. Only 8 more days and then I hope amazing play time with a big release at the end. I try not to hope to much because with Mistress you never know. She might just give me a ruined orgasm and lock me back up. But I have been a very good boy so I keep dreaming of my release day.

Remote training tasks

Mistress is in Dubai and as always she locked me in chastity while she is gone. During the lock down she let me cum a few times a week so I am not used to not cumming at all anymore. After one week I was already struggling and now I am going crazy. All these years of chastity training are gone and I am back a chastity newbie. Mistress finds it very funny and teases me a lot with amazing pictures.

Luckily she gives me lot attention and many tasks to do. I of course have to run in the morning on Saturday I have ass training. That is the good thing about chastity it really makes me want big dildo’s in my ass. Mistress has many new toys in the house including large cocks. So on Saturday I have lots of fun putting bigger and bigger toys in my ass.
On Sunday I now have nipple training. Every week I torture my nipples a bit more and film it to please Mistress.

You can see clips of all my tasks on my free onlyfans but here are some pictures.

Coming home

Lately it is very busy at work and Mistress preferred me working from the office instead of taking calls all day in the house. So I go to the office as Mistress wishes. I do miss being so close to her all day. Of course she is very demanding and often disrupt my meetings. But it does feel good and natural to be with her all the time.

But for the last 2 weeks I was at the office, going home relatively late when Mistress is already in TV mode so also no play for me. All these months of constant play has spoiled me and I really miss her touch can you believe that my body is without marks?
Today I was at work and I got a message from Mistress, when will you home. I replied I think around 6pm Mistress. “When you go home, go directly to the bathroom, take a shower and clean yourselves. I became very excited and couldn’t wait to go home, I should have replied with 5pm.

Finally it was time to go home and I jumped on my bike and i never biked home so fast. I opened the door and the house was completely quiet. I did as I was told and went to the bathroom. On the floor was a pile of toys and a note, “wash, put everything on, waiting position”. I jumped in the shower and cleaned myself, I also shaved so Mistress has nothing to complain about.

I looked at the toys, it where 4 heavy duty cuffs, kali’s teeth for my cock, the lockable butt plug, nipple clamps and the new restrictive hood. Next to it where 6 locks, they are open but no keys. I put everything on and locked it into place, the hood was a struggle to put on alone, it restricts my breathing and I had to really listen to hear anything. I went into waiting position and nothing else I could do then to wait for Mistress.

She took her time, my legs where killing me and I was starting to get cold being on the bathroom floor. But at last I could hear Mistress at least I hope it was Mistress. She took me in the bedroom and pushed me on the bed. I was laying on my stomach waiting for what would happen. I didn’t had to wait long. Mistress her whip landed on my back, I screamed but the hood was also effective to silence me. Mistress had no mercy with full force she delivered one lash after the other. Nothing I could do then to accept what Mistress was giving me. Then she stopped just for a second then I feel her cane on my ass. No warming up, just full force. I had trouble laying still but did the best I could, knowing that Mistress would hurt me more if I didn’t.

Finally it was over, I could feel the blood streaming for the cane weld on my ass. I started crying and the only thing I wanted know was to be held by Mistress, hearing her say that she still loves me.

But Mistress has other plans, she pushed my legs together and with 2 simple clicks I was laying in a hogtie bondage. My body struggling with the pain from the whip and cane. I could feel that Mistress was leaving me alone and I so hoped not for long.

After 10 minutes or so she came back and removed my nipple clamps. I was relieved finally release. But they where replaced with stronger clamps and I screamed in my hood. I could feel Mistress kissing my head and saying something like goodbye. I panicked and screamed in my hood not to leave me but Mistress was already gone.

After a few more minutes my nipples felt like they are on fire and my legs are starting to shake. I screamed again for Mistress but she didn’t hear me. I started to cry, asking myself why did I allow this? Minute after minute past and I finally became more relaxed. I accepted the pain and what Mistress was doing to me. I started to get hard but was merciless punished by kali’s teeth that dig deep into my penis, preventing any enjoyment. I cried again and screamed for Mistress.

I must have gone to subspace, because I felt the strap on my ass. I tried to move my legs but the sudden movement makes them cramp. Mistress gave me only like 10 slaps and then she released the hog tie. My legs fel on the bed not able to move them. Mistress unlocked my butt plug harness and finally I was going to be released.

But Mistress wasn’t done yet, she put me on my back and pushed my legs. Before I knew it she entered me with her big strap-on. Whilst she was in me, she removed the hood but left the nipple clamps. I look at her still with tears in my eyes, she smiled and I could see that she really enjoyed what she did to me. She started to fuck me deep and hard and after only a few minutes, sperm was flowing out my cock. Mistress said no me first.

She pushed the strap-on all the way in me. Reached for her doxy and put it on full speed on top of her strap-on. The feeling was intense, the strap-on was vibrating on my prostate and Mistress her clit. Mistress only needed a minute and at the moment she was about to came, she reach for my nipple clamps and pulled them off. I screamed in pain at the same moment Mistress screamed in joy.

Mistress removed the strap-on and felt tired next to me on the bed. I was looking at her with tears in my eyes but also with intensely happy. She smiled back and said you are such a good boy, you get a treat from me. She turned on her stomach pushing her ass in the air and said you can lick and wank. Now I had a smile from ear to ear, thank you Mistress and I jumped on the floor to get my treat.

Hog Tie

Mistress always likes new toys to use in her filming and play. This time Bondara sent her a box full of toys. In there was a beautiful gag with nipple clamps and a cuff set with hog tie clips. Mistress wanted to use them on me as soon as possible.

The next day I was working from home and having one meeting after the other. Mistress told me that she needed during my lunch break. Two hours later I knocked on the door of the bedroom. Mistress had put the cuffs on the bed and just pointed to them. I start putting the cuffs on and waited till Mistress gave me her attention.

I opened my mouth and Mistress filled it with the gag. The nipple clamps are soft but Mistress abused my nipples the day before so they still hurt a lot. Before I know it Mistress pushed me on the bed and locked me in the hog tie position.

Immediately I felt the pressure in this position. I had to lift my head and that pushed the gag deeper in my mouth. I was now laying on my nipple clamps and that made my nipples feel on fire. Mistress didn’t look very impressed.

I was surprised how quickly my mind went from office mode to full submission mode. I tried to move my legs but the position didn’t allow me a lot of movement. I realized that I was in a very vulnerable position and was fully at the mercy of my Mistress.

It didn’t took very long before Mistress decided what she wanted to do with me. I want to milk you. She grabbed her doxy and slowly let the vibrations get my cock hard. The doxy is a powerful tool but a low speed very frustrating. I was fighting my bounds trying to direct Mistress to the exact right spot. The frustration was getting so intense but not enough stimulation to make me cum.

Mistress increased the speed and I could feel my orgasm building at last. At the very last moment she removed the doxy. I screamed in my gag in frustration but Mistress just laughed at me. Then she said now I want to see you spunk. She put the doxy at full speed. This was another level, I couldn’t fight it second later the doxy extracted an orgasm out of me nothing I could do about it.

Mistress just left me there for some time in my hog tie position. I could feel the cum on my legs and belly but nothing I could do about it. I was there biting my gag and felt extremely humiliated and used by Mistress. My nipples still on fire what after my orgasm very difficult to deal with.

Luckily Mistress as always had mercy with me and untied me. I felt relieved and happy that my Mistress knows when I need to be put on my place. I am at the mercy of my Mistress always and for ever.

You can see the full video on Mistress her onlyfans.

Why cock sucking is important

Mistress was always very clear to me about this point, you will suck cock for me. All my boys have to do it for me. At that moment I wasn’t so sure. In my sexuality I am fully straight. I am happy to see all sorts of non binary relations but I am most definitely straight.

It was after 6 months serving Mistress that we we went to the dungeon. We where not alone, her sissy maid Francesca joined us. She was serving Mistress on almost a daily basis at that time. Francesca received cleaning orders and I was to undress and take place on the spanking bench. Mistress gave a good caning I was really struggling to keep it together for her. But I was a good boy and I was allowed some aftercare laying my head on Mistress lap.

Suddenly she called out, Francesca get your cock here, I need my cock to be ready. Seconds later Francesca came in with a semi hard cock. Mistress started stroking it, very close to my face. Then there was a simple command, suck for me Joris. At first I didn’t react this was something I really didn’t want to do. Mistress pushed my head a bit and I resisted. You could feel the tension in the room. This was my test, I told Mistress I would do anything for her. Well here it is anything.

I was thinking about the last 6 months how Mistress made me happy. I finally found somebody that cares for me exactly who I am. I have to accept her for who she was, my Mistress the Woman that pushes my boundaries that always demand a little more. It was clear to me I had to suck cock for her.

I put it in my mouth and I swear I could hear Mistress smile. The tension was gone, Mistress was enjoying her victory. I taught if I am going to be a cock sucker I am going to be a good one. I went for it just like i would have liked my cock sucked. I could feel the moment getting closer for the grand finale. But just before Mistress said stop. I stopped in a second, I could hear Francesca almost cry out in disappointment. Mistress said that is enough back in chastity sissy, only Mistress can cum.

Mistress hugged me and told me that she was proud of me. Also that it was make or break for her. She has to be sure that I would do anything for her. I started crying a bit and said of course Mistress anything to please you.

After that first time Mistress makes me suck cock on special occasions, not very often but enough to make sure that I don’t forget that it is one of things I do for her. I don’t mind I am happy that Mistress is very selective and only make me suck clean and healthy cocks from her friends.

Thank you Mistress for removing this boundary for me. Please keep pushing me forward to be a better boy for you.

Can there be jealousy in a D/s relationship?

I think jealousy is part of any healthy relationship. It is just a natural side effect when you love somebody. That said it has to go hand in hand with reasoning. My Mistress is the most important person in my life, I am addicted to her and can never have enough of her, if possible I would keep her all to myself.

That is my raw emotion but it is very selfish and it is good to stop a moment by that. Why do I love her so much? I fell in love with a strong independent beautiful woman. That is capable of taking care of herself but prefer to be served and worshiped by many men and a few women. I don’t want to change her I love this powerful female force. She controls our life and does what she pleases.

The question is of course why am I not enough in her life? I know she loves me and want to spend the rest of her life with me so why let all these other energies mix with ours? It took me about 4 years to realize that I am not enough and that is a good thing. Mistress has many needs and wishes and they are often conflicting. She wants a loyal slave that does as she pleases, but she also likes to break a cocky man into submission. She wants a party animal to go out but also a down to earth men that she can come home to.

In the beginning I tried to be everything for her and was jealous to anybody that competed with me for Mistress attention. But the last few years I am settled, I feel secure and safe in Mistress her love for me. I serve her on a daily basis the best I can and in return she whips and spanks me to satisfy my kinks and relax my mind. I am still scared and jealous when she connects to other people, but I know that all will be okay. At the end of the evening when she slides in bed next to me, our energies entangles and the world is fine again. After all we are each other soulmates so we are made to love each other and we do.

The Role of punishment in D/s relationship

Almost all relationships are about power. It can be of course physical or by hierarchy but the more interesting power is mental power. Why do some people have natural leadership? A D/s relationship is consensual both persons accept willingly to take power or to give that power away.

So if it is all willing and consensual why should there be punishment in place? Don’t mix up punishment with play. When the D/s relationship have traditional SM elements then pain is part of the dynamics. Having a whipping session where the dominant goes in her domspace and the sub in his mindset is something beautiful and has nothing to do with punishment.

Punishment comes into play when something happened that was against the set rules. It can be a simple thing like, using the wrong form to address your Mistress. But it is of high importance in your D/s relationship. If small things are allowed to slip by then it will go quickly downhill. So when your Mistress punishes you be grateful, she will only punishes you when she cares. When she wants to improve the relationship and make you a better sub for her.

So what is a punishment? Of course it starts with pain. When Mistress gives me a cold caning. It is very difficult to get in the right mindset and it takes a lot of effort to take it for her. Seeing me struggle for her knowing that I don’t enjoy the pain and only do it to please her is a good punishment. But if Mistress wants to really change my behavior she punishes me by not allowing to be with her. It makes me so said that she is spending time with somebody else instead of with me. I do anything to avoid that.

Changing behavior for the better is really hard and we in a D/s relationship are the lucky once that have an extra tool to improve. So when Mistress punishes you to become better embrace it, learn from it and thank her for taking the time and effort.

Mistress is training me for 9 years. In the beginning I was punished a lot and that helped me to learn quickly. Now it doesn’t happen that often but as soon as I slip Mistress will help me to become a good boy for her again by punishing me extremely.

The Mixed feelings about Chastity

On my blogs I already wrote a lot about chastity. That is not so strange because it is a powerful tool in any Female Led Relationship. As men we are programmed to spread our seed as often as possible. I am no exception to that. For years every day I started the day with a wank even when I was in a relationship and intercourse was a possibility I still wanked a lot just as a habit, it was part my routine.

When Mistress came in my life one of the first things she said was no cumming without permission. At first I taught it was hot, I was craving all my life to be controlled by a powerful dominatrix and Mistress fulfilled my wishes and more. After a few months and not being with Mistress all the time, I made my mistakes. Mistress responded quickly with severe punishment and of course for the first time chastity. A bon4 silicon with a plastic lock so I am still able to fly to Mistress and back to Holland.

From that moment chastity has been a big part of our D/s relationship. Mistress likes the control it gives her and I really like to be controlled by Mistress. It gives me a feeling of being owned. I really feel hers when I am locked and it feels good to have somebody that takes care of me. It also puts me at ease when I am with other women, Mistresses or not. Nothing can happen, I am claimed and locked.

On the other side, chastity is really difficult, the not cumming I can deal with that is for my Mistress. But the chastity cage also prevents a good sleep and that has effect on everything. I am always tired and can’t process the daily events during my R.E.M. sleep. It results that I am emotional, grumpy and have difficulties to concentrate. That has an effect on my work and friendships.

But more important is that it effect my thinking about Mistress. When I am lock with her it is fine, she corrects me when I have a difficult time and the whip is a great mind changer. When she is for months in the Middle East enjoying herself with her rich clients and toy boys my mind can go very dark. It always scares me and I am so afraid that one day I will do something stupid. I always have to calm myself down and remind me that she loves me and that it will be fine when we are back together.

But I wouldn’t want to miss it in our relationship. I think my Mistress is the most beautiful woman in the world and I crave her touch. But when I am in chastity and she teases me till I cry. The extreme power she has over me and the love I feel for her is one of the most beautiful things in my life. So thank you for controlling me my Mistress.

My view on Female Led Relationships

Mistress talks often about our relationship from her point of view. I will take this opportunity to tell a bit in my process to settle in our relationship.

It of course all start with my mother. I was brought up in a traditional Belgium family where the Mother is the base of the family life. With two older sisters I can safely say that I grew up with lots of female power around me. It taught me respect, compassion but most important the strength of female leadership.

My mum had a few rules; If you make a mess, you clean up the mess. Don’t trouble others you are already trouble enough by yourself. Always be respectful to others no matter what. I tried to follow my mothers rules as good as possible.

When I first met Mistress, I knew this was going to be the woman I spent the rest of my life with. She quickly saw the potential in me but of course a woman worshiped by so many men needed proof first. She puts me on a very strict servitude regime. I was punished for every mistake and then some more just because Mistress loves to hurt me. For the first year my body was never without the marks of Mistress.

This was from both sides difficult to keep up. I had trouble to mix my personal life, my normal work, the work for Mistress and my domestic services. Mistress didn’t want to be on top of my work at all times, punishing me for every little mistake, she just wanted things to be done her way. This wasn’t going to work in the long term and for the first time we discussed our relationship. Not as Mistress and slave but as two people in love with an alternative lifestyle.

The traditional TPE (Total power exchange) wasn’t a fit. Mistress wants me to be a strong individual living up to my full potential in the corporate work as well as good dad and role model for my daughter. This requires lots of independent acting. On the other hands she want to be released of the daily tasks and just somebody around that takes care of her wishes.

The solution was the Female Led Relationship. We both have a strong say but Mistress decision is final. If we disagree a word of Mistress is enough to put me back in my place. Mistress controls for 100% my sexuality and has the right to punish me for no other reason then that she like to see me in pain. I take care of most domestic tasks. I also get all the time I need for work and family.

It works out so beautifully. We never fight of course sometimes I don’t agree with Mistress. But that isn’t enough to not make it happen. I quickly switch to a mode of acceptance and try to make the best out of it. If I do make a mistake, Mistress makes me pay severely but when the punishment is over so is the conflict. Actually each punishment brings us closer together.

Mistress does encourage me to speak up, she listens to my troubles and concerns. She relies on my opinion to prevent wrong decisions in both our lives. She always does what she pleases but with my input she can make better. She has an excellent bullshit radar and most of the time she just says to man up. But when I have a real problem she will be the first to help me. She is not afraid to make hard decision and pushes me forward in all aspects of my life. I am a stronger, healthier and most of all happier person since I am with Mistress in a female led relationship.

Story: It could be real

I haven’t seen Mistress for weeks, she was once again of on her many travels. This time it was a trip around several European cities. I was alone in the house in London, trying not to feel too lonely. Mistress has been very distant to me, not much more then “Good morning boy” and “Good night” wasn’t communicated. Of course she left me in chastity as she always does when she travels.

The next morning after a difficult night struggling with my chastity I woke up with a text from Mistress: “Report this evening at 6pm, bring everything you need to cook for 4 ladies” In the next message was an address in south London. I looked up the address with google street view and it was a big house in a nice neighborhood a little over on hour away by public transport.

I didn’t understand was Mistress there? Did I have to serve another Mistress? I looked at Mistress her tweets and she just posted a picture of her in front of the lake in Zurich. Guess I have to serve another Mistress. I don’t mind, it is a good distraction for me when Mistress is not around and with a bit of luck I get some play time. A good spanking always relaxes my mind during long periods of chastity.

Mistress didn’t gave me any clue what to cook. I was hoping that fish would do it. Of to the market and I got some scallops, tiger prawns as a starter and sea bass for the main. Next to the supermarket for lots of vegetables enough so if one of the ladies is vegan I could deal with it.

At 6pm exactly I ran to the doorbell and waited nervously, nothing happened and I was starting to wonder what to do. Then I could her the sound of high heels approaching quickly the door opened and Kalida was in front of me with a big smile shouting “Ollllaaaaa”. I was so surprised seeing her that I didn’t move or say anything back. She grabbed my hand and dragged me inside. Come she said.

I followed her with my two big shopping bags, up the stairs like an idiot. Kalida as always looked amazing I was wondering who else was in the house. We arrived in an empty bedroom. I could see 2 little piles of male clothes, so I wasn’t the only one here. She said undress and took my shopping bags and she went downstairs. Nothing else I could do then follow her instructions and a few minutes later I was completely naked and left my clouting neatly folded next to the others.

A few minutes later I could her Kalida’s high heels coming up the stairs, I folded my hands in front of my chastity and looked uncomfortable down. She smiled and said relax, I have something for you. In her hands she had my chastity keys. How on earth was that possible? Is Mistress here? Did Mistress sent her the keys? With a quick move she opened the lock and I was free. Why did she release me? Only Mistress releases me, I felt very much out of my comfort zone. I felt Kalida put something else on my cock. It where Kali’s teeth that locks around the shaft but also behind my balls. I could feel the pins digging in my flaccid penis. This will be extreme if I get hard. Kalida laughed and said look Kalida’s teeth.

I followed her back downstairs into the kitchen and she said food in one hour of she went. One hour was just enough to have everything ready and I started as quick as I could. An hour later I was ready and just at that moment Maid Anna and Susie entered the kitchen. I asked if how are they doing, is Mistress here? They looked at me as if I wasn’t there. They each took two plates of the starters and of they go. When they opened the door I think I could hear Mistress laughing or was I just imagining that.

I felt so alone, but started at the main dish, nobody was talking to me so I have no clue of timing. Kalida came in the kitchen went to get a bottle of white wine. I tried to make contact but she also completely ignored me. I was ready to serve but nobody came to collect. I went to listen to the door. I could here people talk loud and having fun. I felt said that I was here alone in the kitchen. Then I could hear doors opening and I quickly went back to my place. They came in with empty dishes and went back with full. Nothing else for me to do so I cleaned the kitchen as good as I could.

Kalida came back in she made the signal for “inspection position” I listened to her and quickly was on my knees. She put a latex hood on me, it was very thick latex. I couldn’t see anything and the latex over my ears muffled all sounds. I could feel that she put cuffs on my writs and ankles the little click sound indicates that everything was locked with padlocks. I felt a sharp tuck on my neck and we where on the move. I couldn’t see a thing and Kalida walked quickly but I managed to keep up with her as good as I could.

We stopped for a second and she pushed me to the floor, before I knew it spread eagle locked with my cuffs. I tested my bounds and no way I could get out of here without help. Then a sharp pain went to though my nipples something was piercing them with enormous force. I tried to get my hands to my nipples but no even a chance to get close. My cock is so used to get hard when Mistress hurts my nipples that even with this extreme pain I was getting hard. The sharp pins of the locked Kali’s teeth where merciless and I was in even more pain.

I was laying there in pain for some time, as suddenly somebody sat on my face and immediately a warm stream hit my mouth. I tried to catch and drink as much as I could. It wasn’t strong it was a bit sweet, I was wondering if this was Mistress or somebody else. In a few minutes it was over and I was alone again. Only for a few minutes and somebody else sat down on me. The way she used me it felt like Mistress also before she left me pulled my nipples and tapped my trapped cock. This went on for hours and I was full, I didn’t knew if the the next would make me puke or that I would pee myself.

I couldn’t hold it anymore and let the pee flow. I knew it was wrong but if felt so good feeling the warmth running over my legs. It felt like I would never stop. Then everything changed even through my hood I could hear somebody shout “What the hell!” A few moment later I was released and dragged to somewhere outside. Before I knew it extremely cold water was running over me. Somebody was hosing me down. It was so cold, I was shaking, begging to stop.

Next I was dragged again to yet another place, something was attached to my cuffs and seconds later I was almost hanging on my cuffs just the tip of my toes could reach the ground. Then the first lash hits me and soon they came from all directions.I could hear the ladies laughing and screaming at me. Even with the hood I could clearly hear Mistress voice. She sounded angry but now I was sure she was there I accepted my faith. I stopped screaming the lashes kept coming and I slowly went into subspace.

After it was all a blur as some moment it stopped and I was just hanging there. The hood was removed and I was alone with Kalida in the some kind of garage. When I saw her I started crying, I need my Mistress now not Kalida. But she was nowhere to be seen. Kalida released me and took me upstairs where she showered me and put me to bed. My body hurts so much, why wasn’t Mistress not with me now? I cried again and felt asleep.

Hours later, I woke up somebody was getting into bed next to me. It was Mistress I grabbed her and started to apologize. She said it was ok, that I took my punishment well, she was proud of me. It was like a heavy load fell of me and I finally relax. Mistress had other plans she whispered in my ear, seeing you in so much pain made me wet all evening. I felt my cock getting hard but the Kali’s teeth dug in and made me scream a little. Mistress said I don’t have the keys, I release you tomorrow, now get to work and she pushed me down. I went to work and was finally completely relaxed and happy again, what an amazing Mistress I have.