As always Mistress locks me in chastity when she goes on her travels. Chastity is not a fetish of mine but it makes Mistress happy and seeing Mistress happy is my biggest fetish.
I prefer using my cb6000 because it is the most comfortable during the night for me. But Mistress had told me before that she wanted me locked in the holy trainer. That is the only device I can wear without a problem at security when I fly.
The holy trainer safely in its place but that wasn’t enough for Mistress. She wanted me to go for a run every morning and send her the proof. I don’t like to run but I do whatever Mistress wants.
The first 2 weeks was just fine, I was really busy at work and lots of stuff on my head that the chastity wasn’t that big of a problem. In the 3rd week I was going to see Mistress for a few days. Just knowing that I would soon be with her made me hard most of the day and I was struggling with my chastity.
Being with Mistress and seeing her wearing my keys with pride is such a beautiful feeling. Our trip to Villa Dracone was amazing and enjoyed serving Mistress. I was graving for a good whipping and Mistress told me she was going to test me. At the end we had such a great time with Mistress Dada that Mistress only gave me a very small whipping. But it was enough to relax me.
Unfortunately our trip was only for 2 days and I flew back to Holland and Mistress to London to continue her European tour. Now we are a week later and I am struggling a lot the last few days. I am always semi hard and sleeping is impossible now. I am so tired so horny and Mistress is so far away. Nothing I can do then suffer for my Mistress knowing that she is proud of me.
I am now 6 years in a Female Led Relationship and Mistress controlled my orgasms from the very first day. It was one of the first things she said, “no cumming without my permission”. It where a few simple words but with a huge impact. It was part of my morning shower ritual; shave, wash, wank. I didn’t really enjoyed it, it was just part of the deal. When I wasn’t tired I would often had a wank in the evening too, watching some bdsm porn. Mistress put an end to all that taking over full control over my body and mind. I liked that, it made me feel close to Mistress but of course the first year I had some hick ups. Mistress made me pay cumtax or whipped me till I promised never to cum again without her consent. That only works for a month and then I would fail her again. Mistress decided it was time for chastity. Because I fly up and down to London all the time I bought my very first bon4, the large version of course. Proudly I wore it under my vanilla clothes and all was good. The trouble was a night, every night my hard-on woke me up and I was in pain. After 3 weeks I was a broken man, horny and tired as hell. Mistress released me for the first time and I was never so great full. I felt the power she had in locking me up it was almost more than I could handle.
Over the years, the desire to cum has been greatly reduced. I am not that bothered anymore with cumming, don’t get me wrong I am still a very sexual person. But release can be in so many forms. When Mistress wants an orgasm it is about that and I don’t need one in return. I am happy when I can help achieving hers. Now Mistress let me cum an average once a month and I am very happy with that.
Dealing with emotions is hard and I fail all the time. But I learned to only focus only on my love for Mistress. The wonderful relationship we have where she totally controls my body and mind. That makes me smile and makes me miss Mistress even more but does gives me a happy feeling. All negative thoughts I push to the background. That would be fine but Mistress loves to control me. She sent me a picture kissing an other boy and I’ll be crying for hours wondering if she still loves me. On the other hand just a small message from Mistress that she loves me, makes me smile for hours. It is that total control over me that Mistress loves about putting me in chastity.
