Cum Controlled

I was working on my computer and suddenly I hear Mistress ringing the bell. I of course dropped what I did and went to the bedroom. Mistress was sitting in only her beautiful nightgown. Mistress pointed in front of her and I quickly knelt down for her.

Boy, it is time to continue your chastity training. I don’t mind that much, Mistress locks me up a lot and although the frustration is difficult to deal with I have no other choice and I accept that. Mistress continues, but you will love it this time, no cage and we will do all the kinky thinks you love so much. I looked at her in disbelieve. Of course you are not allowed to cum. Every drop of cum are 10 whip lashes. If you manage not to have an orgasm in the next 2 weeks you can choose you favorite way to cum. If you have an orgasm you will be locked in your cage for a month after that we play this game again, do you understand?

I could only say “yes Mistress” I was looking forward of Mistress teasing me, but I know I have no chance I will cum when Mistress teases me, how can I resist her? Mistress pointed to her holy shrine, no sniff and edge for me boy, only snuff no touching. Mistress holy shrine smells so good, I quickly became hard and slowly stroked. It didn’t took long before I felt the familiar feeling of building up an orgasm. I slowed down my stroking and looked at Mistress. She smiled and said, yes you want to ask something. Mistress may I please stop I will cum soon I asked. Yes we will continue this evening Mistress said you may go.

That evening, when we went to bed and Mistress took her Doxy, a simple command, lick followed. She put her doxy to her clit and I licked all her juices while she enjoyed. I could feel my cock pulsing but I didn’t dare to touch it without permission. Soon Mistress came and there was nothing for me, night night she said. I was up for a couple of hours with a cock calling for attention. This was only day one of teasing, how can I do this for 2 weeks?

The next few days, Mistress made me edge when I came home after work. It became a nice ritual. I kissed her, she said kneel and opened her legs and the command lick and edge came. After 3 days I was so horny and it took less and less to get to the edge. Mistress encouraged me to keep stroking and of course the first drops of pre-cum came out. Mistress smiled and only said get the whip. I think these are 3 drops and she whipped me 30 times. No warm up, just hard lashes that I needed to count. I was in so much pain but my hard cock was still there almost rebelling to Mistress her effort.

The first week passed with daily edging and it was Saturday we had nothing planned and after Mistress made me clean the house, she ordered me in the dungeon. Soon I was tied up to the bed and there was nothing I could do to stop Mistress from teasing me. She got on top of me and puts her ass in my face. I was scared and never could resist Mistress like this. I didn’t move, closed my eyes. But Mistress knew better, lick she ordered. I couldn’t resist her and put my tongue to her beautiful asshole and licked. My cock betrayed me again and was rock hard. Mistress started to stroke me and I knew I was in deep trouble.

Luckily she stroked me very slow and I was actually in heaven. I almost forgot that I wasn’t allowed to cum, when Mistress stopped stroking and my cock pulsed in an effort to cum. Of course some pre cum came out and Mistress laughed and I will enjoy whipping you later. Keep on licking and she continued to stoke me. I tried to get away from her but the restrains did there work and there was no place to go. I started to beg to stop but Mistress made kept me on the absolute edge with very light touches now. This was so frustrating I wanted to cum so much but I didn’t want to be locked for a month after that. Mistress said oo there is more pre cum you will bleed for me later. I almost started crying, Mistress put her full weight down on my face and waited till I struggled for air. Now it is time for the whip she said.

After the whipping, I took a shower and saw the water turning red from my blood. My back hurt so much and I still have a week to go. The daily teasing and edging continued and I can tell you all this so much more difficult than being locked up in a chastity cage. When I struggle in my cage I take distance from Mistress and keep to myself. But this teasing and edging forces me to be close to Mistress. I can now not edge anymore without loosing pre cum and I expect every moment to give myself a ruined orgasm with all the cum build up that will be a lot of whipping to pay that off to Mistress.

It was Saturday again my two weeks are almost done. I was starting to think I could make it. Mistress ordered me again to the dungeon and tied me up. I was expecting to have some more facesitting, but she blindfolded me and all I could do was wait. I could hear the bottle of lube and I expected some prostate massage. But then I felt two cold pads on my nipples from the e-stim. Mistress can make me cum from the right amount of pain or torture me merciless. Then I could feel her on my cock, It didn’t took long before I could feel what she was doing.

She was using the new kali’s teeth. These had long sharp points and will pierce the skin. With some effort she closed it and I was in a world of pain. I was loosing a bit of my erection but then the e-stim started to work on my nipples. No pain just stimulation I was getting hard again and Kali was biting hard on my cock. Mistress started laughing, do you like this boy? I was in to much pain and pleasure to answer. She got on top of me and entered my cock in her holy shrine. Even with the pain I was right on the edge again. Slowly she started to ride me. While I was getting closer to orgasm Mistress increase the e-stim and I was in so much pain. I came and I came hard I don’t even know anymore if it was out of pleasure or out of pain. Mistress said me too and she increased the e-stim even more while she put her doxy to her clit. I was crying out in pain and Mistress in pleasure.

After she released me it was very simple, you lost take a shower and lock yourself and come bring me the keys. We try again next month. Yes Mistress was all I could say.

Locktober 2023 an update

I know, I only write blogs anymore when Mistress keeps me in chastity. It is for me still a great way to relax my mind when I put things in a blog. So please allow me and thank you for reading.

Also this year Mistress locked all her slaves and sissies on the first of October. I was expecting it and because I didn’t came for over a week. I was planning a sweet love session the day before. But as always Mistress had different plans. We woke up and as always on Saturday Mistress made me clean the house spotless. She said to hurry up because she wanted to go shopping in the city.

When I was done cleaning she just came out of the bathroom fully naked shaking her ass in front of me. I looked at her beautiful ass ready to devour it when Mistress said the word. But she only said, you are sweaty take a shower and get ready. After shopping we had lunch, hooked up with a friend and before I knew it the day passed without release.

The following morning, the bell rang and I found an irritated Mistress, where are my keys, I sent everybody a message on loyalfans. When Mistress is liked that, this is for the time to quickly do whatever she wants. I was locked, collared on my knees, kissing Mistress her beautiful feet. Mistress relaxed again and enjoyed the worshiping. Are a few minutes the next command was, shave my pussy. It is my task to keep her pussy smoothly shaven. I love it, it is so intimate and it shows that Mistress trust me with a razor at her sanctum.

I was concentrating on the shaving and doing the task as good as possible, But when I finished I could feel for the first time in October the cage doing it work. My mind went in overtime, I would love to give her a little kiss taste Mistress her femininity but the collar on my neck reminded me to be a good boy and I just looked till Mistress send me away.

The next days quickly went by Mistress was doing the last things for the Femdom ball 2023 and I was working. So no play, no teasing nothing just busy people. The Femdom Ball was amazing all these beautiful Ladies in long gala dresses. I love the fetish outfits but a gala is something else it is an absolute tribute to Matriarchy. A woman in a beautiful dress holding a whip in her hand followed by a hooded boy is such a powerful sight to see. I just love it!

After the ball it was back to work, luckily I can work from almost anywhere. Mistress needed to relax from all her hard working in the last weeks. She ignored the fact that I was locked for her. One evening in bed she grabbed between my legs asking, are you still locked? I was a chocked by her question, I was constantly struggling and she forgot about it! Thinking about it

But it put me back in my place, it is not about my pleasure or my struggle. It is all about pleasing Mistress and she was fully occupied with her own things. I can only say, sorry Mistress and thank you for locking me up. It proofs that I need it to be a good boy, your good boy.

Soon we are together again, I can’t wait to be at your feet, feeling the power you have over me. It feels so good to owned and loved by you.

Labels, titles and their meaning.

Just a disclaimer in front, this blog reflect my views on the subject and not that of my Mistress. In this case she doesn’t fully agree but she is kind enough to let me express my thoughts.

On twitter there is a lively discussion at the moment about who should call themself a Dominatrix and who an escort with kinky services. Of course all synonyms of the terms are used.

The main point is should the term Dominatrix be protected to these that only offer domination services and no personal services?

Of course there are no legal grounds to protect any of the sex workers titles. Although that would be the solution. If a dominatrix could say, I have a PHD in domination with a specialty in whipping, that could be protected. I do see kink entering the vanilla world we are far from this situation.

So where are we in this day and age? You see devaluation of titles all around us. Even the once given by nature, like male and female , are becoming more blurred. It is the natural evolution of human nature and we have never been able to stop this. It helps us question or status quo in society and helps us to be come stronger individuals. Look at the current gen Z for many a step to far but they are striving.

So am I pleading that any thing should go? That we should forget the lessons from the past and just do whatever? No, diffidently not I am against the current tendency of narcissism and the current why the titles are used is a reflection of that. As always the truth in somewhere in the middle.

We can not protect our titles in the kinky world nor make definition of them. So it all boils down to mutual respect. Take the effort the learn each other before assuming anything. Sex workers are extremely well in stating their boundaries. Unfortunately customers are extremely good at only thinking of their own moment of pleasure.

So sex workers shouldn’t argue between each other, but support and help each other. See your work for what it is. It is highly specialized and is not something you can do without education. This can be self education by studying your peers but a better way in my opinion is to become an apprentice and learn the craft by an experienced Dominatrix or Escort.

To come back to the original question, yes I do think you can combine domination and personal service and still call yourself a Dominatrix. We shouldn’t enforce definitions they are only valid in our point of view. By objecting to them we close ourselves to others.

On the other hand I also believe that a relationship with a Dominatrix is way more intimate without personal services. Tease and denial is the core to power exchange. It is amazing the pleasure you find in just being close to your Mistress. It is pleasure that can go on forever while an orgasm is just a few seconds. So just take your time learn each other pleasures, limits and above all respect them. Life will be so much more pleasureful than arguing about a definition.

Can there be jealousy in a D/s relationship?

I think jealousy is part of any healthy relationship. It is just a natural side effect when you love somebody. That said it has to go hand in hand with reasoning. My Mistress is the most important person in my life, I am addicted to her and can never have enough of her, if possible I would keep her all to myself.

That is my raw emotion but it is very selfish and it is good to stop a moment by that. Why do I love her so much? I fell in love with a strong independent beautiful woman. That is capable of taking care of herself but prefer to be served and worshiped by many men and a few women. I don’t want to change her I love this powerful female force. She controls our life and does what she pleases.

The question is of course why am I not enough in her life? I know she loves me and want to spend the rest of her life with me so why let all these other energies mix with ours? It took me about 4 years to realize that I am not enough and that is a good thing. Mistress has many needs and wishes and they are often conflicting. She wants a loyal slave that does as she pleases, but she also likes to break a cocky man into submission. She wants a party animal to go out but also a down to earth men that she can come home to.

In the beginning I tried to be everything for her and was jealous to anybody that competed with me for Mistress attention. But the last few years I am settled, I feel secure and safe in Mistress her love for me. I serve her on a daily basis the best I can and in return she whips and spanks me to satisfy my kinks and relax my mind. I am still scared and jealous when she connects to other people, but I know that all will be okay. At the end of the evening when she slides in bed next to me, our energies entangles and the world is fine again. After all we are each other soulmates so we are made to love each other and we do.

6 weeks together with Mistress

Because of our current working situation Mistress and I are never together for long. Only during the holidays we are 3 weeks together. At the beginning of the lockdown, I flew to Mistress with one of the last planes from Eindhoven. Now we are 6 weeks together and it is a great time.

I have to be honest I was a little bit scared to be so long together while I also have to work. Mistress always wants things to be done the moment she asks me something. During the day I am always on video calls and can not attend to my Mistress. It took a while to get used to and she sometimes still interrupts but she respects my work.

As soon as I am done Mistress always have to reassure her authority. Massaging her feet, give me a whipping are record some content for her onlyfans. I have to say it is amazing to serve her like this. I am now typing this with my ass still hurting from her last spanking. Looking at her sitting on the sofa, no fetish clothing but she looks so beautiful. Any second she can click her fingers and my world changes.

The difficult thing is the cumming control, Mistress had me in chastity for some time. But released me last week and just gave me a ruined orgasm. I am so used to not cum for weeks. But now Mistress always looks so amazing this cum control is so difficult. I know better not to beg for it, but if Mistress would allow me I would beg every day for attention, but I know better and wait till Mistress grants me permission.

People always say I am lucky and I am. Not because I am in D/s relation, but that I am in a loving relationship where we both can be express our love and kinks without holding back. Thank you Mistress for being in my life.