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Cum Controlled

I was working on my computer and suddenly I hear Mistress ringing the bell. I of course dropped what I did and went to the bedroom. Mistress was sitting in only her beautiful nightgown. Mistress pointed in front of her and I quickly knelt down for her.

Boy, it is time to continue your chastity training. I don’t mind that much, Mistress locks me up a lot and although the frustration is difficult to deal with I have no other choice and I accept that. Mistress continues, but you will love it this time, no cage and we will do all the kinky thinks you love so much. I looked at her in disbelieve. Of course you are not allowed to cum. Every drop of cum are 10 whip lashes. If you manage not to have an orgasm in the next 2 weeks you can choose you favorite way to cum. If you have an orgasm you will be locked in your cage for a month after that we play this game again, do you understand?

I could only say “yes Mistress” I was looking forward of Mistress teasing me, but I know I have no chance I will cum when Mistress teases me, how can I resist her? Mistress pointed to her holy shrine, no sniff and edge for me boy, only snuff no touching. Mistress holy shrine smells so good, I quickly became hard and slowly stroked. It didn’t took long before I felt the familiar feeling of building up an orgasm. I slowed down my stroking and looked at Mistress. She smiled and said, yes you want to ask something. Mistress may I please stop I will cum soon I asked. Yes we will continue this evening Mistress said you may go.

That evening, when we went to bed and Mistress took her Doxy, a simple command, lick followed. She put her doxy to her clit and I licked all her juices while she enjoyed. I could feel my cock pulsing but I didn’t dare to touch it without permission. Soon Mistress came and there was nothing for me, night night she said. I was up for a couple of hours with a cock calling for attention. This was only day one of teasing, how can I do this for 2 weeks?

The next few days, Mistress made me edge when I came home after work. It became a nice ritual. I kissed her, she said kneel and opened her legs and the command lick and edge came. After 3 days I was so horny and it took less and less to get to the edge. Mistress encouraged me to keep stroking and of course the first drops of pre-cum came out. Mistress smiled and only said get the whip. I think these are 3 drops and she whipped me 30 times. No warm up, just hard lashes that I needed to count. I was in so much pain but my hard cock was still there almost rebelling to Mistress her effort.

The first week passed with daily edging and it was Saturday we had nothing planned and after Mistress made me clean the house, she ordered me in the dungeon. Soon I was tied up to the bed and there was nothing I could do to stop Mistress from teasing me. She got on top of me and puts her ass in my face. I was scared and never could resist Mistress like this. I didn’t move, closed my eyes. But Mistress knew better, lick she ordered. I couldn’t resist her and put my tongue to her beautiful asshole and licked. My cock betrayed me again and was rock hard. Mistress started to stroke me and I knew I was in deep trouble.

Luckily she stroked me very slow and I was actually in heaven. I almost forgot that I wasn’t allowed to cum, when Mistress stopped stroking and my cock pulsed in an effort to cum. Of course some pre cum came out and Mistress laughed and I will enjoy whipping you later. Keep on licking and she continued to stoke me. I tried to get away from her but the restrains did there work and there was no place to go. I started to beg to stop but Mistress made kept me on the absolute edge with very light touches now. This was so frustrating I wanted to cum so much but I didn’t want to be locked for a month after that. Mistress said oo there is more pre cum you will bleed for me later. I almost started crying, Mistress put her full weight down on my face and waited till I struggled for air. Now it is time for the whip she said.

After the whipping, I took a shower and saw the water turning red from my blood. My back hurt so much and I still have a week to go. The daily teasing and edging continued and I can tell you all this so much more difficult than being locked up in a chastity cage. When I struggle in my cage I take distance from Mistress and keep to myself. But this teasing and edging forces me to be close to Mistress. I can now not edge anymore without loosing pre cum and I expect every moment to give myself a ruined orgasm with all the cum build up that will be a lot of whipping to pay that off to Mistress.

It was Saturday again my two weeks are almost done. I was starting to think I could make it. Mistress ordered me again to the dungeon and tied me up. I was expecting to have some more facesitting, but she blindfolded me and all I could do was wait. I could hear the bottle of lube and I expected some prostate massage. But then I felt two cold pads on my nipples from the e-stim. Mistress can make me cum from the right amount of pain or torture me merciless. Then I could feel her on my cock, It didn’t took long before I could feel what she was doing.

She was using the new kali’s teeth. These had long sharp points and will pierce the skin. With some effort she closed it and I was in a world of pain. I was loosing a bit of my erection but then the e-stim started to work on my nipples. No pain just stimulation I was getting hard again and Kali was biting hard on my cock. Mistress started laughing, do you like this boy? I was in to much pain and pleasure to answer. She got on top of me and entered my cock in her holy shrine. Even with the pain I was right on the edge again. Slowly she started to ride me. While I was getting closer to orgasm Mistress increase the e-stim and I was in so much pain. I came and I came hard I don’t even know anymore if it was out of pleasure or out of pain. Mistress said me too and she increased the e-stim even more while she put her doxy to her clit. I was crying out in pain and Mistress in pleasure.

After she released me it was very simple, you lost take a shower and lock yourself and come bring me the keys. We try again next month. Yes Mistress was all I could say.

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Wedlocked

On May 19th 2023 I pledged my love in front of family and friends to my soul mate. It will be forever my go to happy moment. We have been building up to this moment for so long. I was afraid that it wouldn’t live up to the moment as the expectation where so high. But it all came together in a beautiful symphony of harmony, between Mistress and me and also our families.

Of course it wouldn’t be a Female Led wedding without some small hints involved. I was waiting for my soon to be wife to arrive facing away from the audience. When Mistress was in sight my best man said time to turn around. When I did I saw the most beautiful woman in the world in a perfect dress that was just so her. I bowed when I put my eyes on her, to acknowledge the fact that I wasn’t only marrying my true love but maybe even more my Mistress.

Nobody could see that I was in fact a chaste boy for my Mistress. About a month before the big day Mistress locked me up. Normally chastity is for me a roller coast of emotions but this time it was just right. Normally Mistress likes to wear the key as a little pendant in her bosom so everybody from the scene knows I am locked. This time she kept the key around her ankle. I could hear the sound with every step she made it made me more submissive as I was constantly looking at her feet.

Before Mistress left she changed me into my holy trainer so I could fly without issues and the next time I saw her was 10 days later in sunny Portugal. I was wondering if Mistress would release me for the wedding day. But no I was there with all my family and friends and nobody knew the power Mistress was holding over me.

When all was over and Mistress and I where tired and laying happy in bed we both slept almost immediately. I woke up as a married man with the same daily struggles as most subs, morning wood in a chastity cage. I was sure Mistress would release me and I started to give her little kisses. Mistress smiled and pushed her beautiful ass against my chastity cage. I taught it would burst open and set me free but of course Mistress ensured that I knew my place, only she decides my pleasure and pain. She simple said let’s take a shower and see the family for breakfast.

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12 years of servitude

Mistress and I are now a little over 12 years together and next month we will finally marry. It is a nice moment to reflect and think about the future. Mistress has really been my savior. From childhood I already played power exchange games and my puberty was full of internet (BBS) BDSM. But I never made the step to seek a professional Dominatrix. A vanilla relationship that didn’t work out but did gave my a beautiful daughter makes the story complete.

Because of my longing for kink and didn’t want to go outside my relationship I started a kinky blog in the Netherlands. It allowed me to express my kink and it brought me closer to the femdom world in the Netherlands. This is also how I came in contact with Mistress as she was announcing her visit to The Hague on twitter. For me it clicked immediately her open way of talking, her beautiful smile, her view on the world and above all she is 100% a dominant woman in everything she does. The submissive man inside me was awoken.

It took some time before I united myself of my previous life but halve a year later I was ready to see Mistress. Of course things where not that straight forward. Mistress had multiple lovers, slaves,… a complex social life. As with many subs it was love at first sight from the male perspective. I was at first, yet an other man in her life that wanted something from her. I just wanted her attention, I didn’t mind the others as long as I was with Mistress. Mistress quickly understood my kinks and every time I left her with her marks on my body. Hoping that they would last till the next time I would see her.

The only thing I could do was try to proof myself to Mistress. I am obedient, I listen to her, I help where I can, I am patient, I am grateful for her attention and I truly love her. My first birthday was the most special birthday I ever had, Mistress collared me. It was so special to me, because it was the first commitment from Mistress to me. You are mine now, no playing around, you are owned. I cried from happiness and still every time she collars me I find it such an intimate moment.

Over the years we just we grew closer and closer together, of course we had our bumps in the road. But even that gave us more insights in each other. For the first time in my life I can say I truly love a partner and I can’t imaging a life without her. So I am so happy that we finally getting married next month.

The big question of course, why, will it change anything? I don’t think so, for me it is just yet an other way to say, I love you I want to be with you whatever life trows at us. I believe that together we are stronger and more powerful then apart. We are having a Female Led Relationship and that doesn’t mean I don’t have a say. Mistress always listen to my arguments only the final decision is hers. It matches so perfectly with how I am, I don’t want big discussions, I speak my mind and then a decision is made by Mistress and we stick to it.

Over the years I understand Mistress kinks and mine better and better. We don’t play all the time but there is always a level of servitude I have for Mistress. I cook, clean, help her dress, do the shopping get her drinks and many more small things. Any mistake in this area will result in punishment. Punishment is so different then play. I love impact play and Mistress knows exactly how to dance around my limits. When I was a good boy she will push me over the line till I find mercy in sub space. This is such an beautiful moment with Mistress. My mind disconnects from the pain, I feel happy and loved in Mistress her embrace.

That brings me to my ultimate kink and that is power exchange. Feeling the power of Mistress when she pushes my limits, when I suffer beyond pleasure. It is such a contradiction in my mind, why is the woman that I love doing that to me and please don’t stop making me suffer Mistress. This can be with the whip but I feel her feminine power the most when she teases me in chastity. When we both lust for each other but for some reason she enjoys my suffering more then making love to me. How can I not love this woman?

So will marriage change our dynamic? No, we are constantly in flux but our base is solid and build on mutual respect. I love her, I trust her with my life. I hope to create many more memories with her both in vanilla as in kink. I hope she will push me out of my comfort zone to discover new pleasures. I can only offer to trust her, to accept with open mind so she can explorer her own kinks and limits. I am sure in her love and feel comfortable in our FLR, she is the woman that beats me.

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Labels, titles and their meaning.

Just a disclaimer in front, this blog reflect my views on the subject and not that of my Mistress. In this case she doesn’t fully agree but she is kind enough to let me express my thoughts.

On twitter there is a lively discussion at the moment about who should call themself a Dominatrix and who an escort with kinky services. Of course all synonyms of the terms are used.

The main point is should the term Dominatrix be protected to these that only offer domination services and no personal services?

Of course there are no legal grounds to protect any of the sex workers titles. Although that would be the solution. If a dominatrix could say, I have a PHD in domination with a specialty in whipping, that could be protected. I do see kink entering the vanilla world we are far from this situation.

So where are we in this day and age? You see devaluation of titles all around us. Even the once given by nature, like male and female , are becoming more blurred. It is the natural evolution of human nature and we have never been able to stop this. It helps us question or status quo in society and helps us to be come stronger individuals. Look at the current gen Z for many a step to far but they are striving.

So am I pleading that any thing should go? That we should forget the lessons from the past and just do whatever? No, diffidently not I am against the current tendency of narcissism and the current why the titles are used is a reflection of that. As always the truth in somewhere in the middle.

We can not protect our titles in the kinky world nor make definition of them. So it all boils down to mutual respect. Take the effort the learn each other before assuming anything. Sex workers are extremely well in stating their boundaries. Unfortunately customers are extremely good at only thinking of their own moment of pleasure.

So sex workers shouldn’t argue between each other, but support and help each other. See your work for what it is. It is highly specialized and is not something you can do without education. This can be self education by studying your peers but a better way in my opinion is to become an apprentice and learn the craft by an experienced Dominatrix or Escort.

To come back to the original question, yes I do think you can combine domination and personal service and still call yourself a Dominatrix. We shouldn’t enforce definitions they are only valid in our point of view. By objecting to them we close ourselves to others.

On the other hand I also believe that a relationship with a Dominatrix is way more intimate without personal services. Tease and denial is the core to power exchange. It is amazing the pleasure you find in just being close to your Mistress. It is pleasure that can go on forever while an orgasm is just a few seconds. So just take your time learn each other pleasures, limits and above all respect them. Life will be so much more pleasureful than arguing about a definition.

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Remote training tasks

Mistress is in Dubai and as always she locked me in chastity while she is gone. During the lock down she let me cum a few times a week so I am not used to not cumming at all anymore. After one week I was already struggling and now I am going crazy. All these years of chastity training are gone and I am back a chastity newbie. Mistress finds it very funny and teases me a lot with amazing pictures.

Luckily she gives me lot attention and many tasks to do. I of course have to run in the morning on Saturday I have ass training. That is the good thing about chastity it really makes me want big dildo’s in my ass. Mistress has many new toys in the house including large cocks. So on Saturday I have lots of fun putting bigger and bigger toys in my ass.
On Sunday I now have nipple training. Every week I torture my nipples a bit more and film it to please Mistress.

You can see clips of all my tasks on my free onlyfans but here are some pictures.

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Coming home

Lately it is very busy at work and Mistress preferred me working from the office instead of taking calls all day in the house. So I go to the office as Mistress wishes. I do miss being so close to her all day. Of course she is very demanding and often disrupt my meetings. But it does feel good and natural to be with her all the time.

But for the last 2 weeks I was at the office, going home relatively late when Mistress is already in TV mode so also no play for me. All these months of constant play has spoiled me and I really miss her touch can you believe that my body is without marks?
Today I was at work and I got a message from Mistress, when will you home. I replied I think around 6pm Mistress. “When you go home, go directly to the bathroom, take a shower and clean yourselves. I became very excited and couldn’t wait to go home, I should have replied with 5pm.

Finally it was time to go home and I jumped on my bike and i never biked home so fast. I opened the door and the house was completely quiet. I did as I was told and went to the bathroom. On the floor was a pile of toys and a note, “wash, put everything on, waiting position”. I jumped in the shower and cleaned myself, I also shaved so Mistress has nothing to complain about.

I looked at the toys, it where 4 heavy duty cuffs, kali’s teeth for my cock, the lockable butt plug, nipple clamps and the new restrictive hood. Next to it where 6 locks, they are open but no keys. I put everything on and locked it into place, the hood was a struggle to put on alone, it restricts my breathing and I had to really listen to hear anything. I went into waiting position and nothing else I could do then to wait for Mistress.

She took her time, my legs where killing me and I was starting to get cold being on the bathroom floor. But at last I could hear Mistress at least I hope it was Mistress. She took me in the bedroom and pushed me on the bed. I was laying on my stomach waiting for what would happen. I didn’t had to wait long. Mistress her whip landed on my back, I screamed but the hood was also effective to silence me. Mistress had no mercy with full force she delivered one lash after the other. Nothing I could do then to accept what Mistress was giving me. Then she stopped just for a second then I feel her cane on my ass. No warming up, just full force. I had trouble laying still but did the best I could, knowing that Mistress would hurt me more if I didn’t.

Finally it was over, I could feel the blood streaming for the cane weld on my ass. I started crying and the only thing I wanted know was to be held by Mistress, hearing her say that she still loves me.

But Mistress has other plans, she pushed my legs together and with 2 simple clicks I was laying in a hogtie bondage. My body struggling with the pain from the whip and cane. I could feel that Mistress was leaving me alone and I so hoped not for long.

After 10 minutes or so she came back and removed my nipple clamps. I was relieved finally release. But they where replaced with stronger clamps and I screamed in my hood. I could feel Mistress kissing my head and saying something like goodbye. I panicked and screamed in my hood not to leave me but Mistress was already gone.

After a few more minutes my nipples felt like they are on fire and my legs are starting to shake. I screamed again for Mistress but she didn’t hear me. I started to cry, asking myself why did I allow this? Minute after minute past and I finally became more relaxed. I accepted the pain and what Mistress was doing to me. I started to get hard but was merciless punished by kali’s teeth that dig deep into my penis, preventing any enjoyment. I cried again and screamed for Mistress.

I must have gone to subspace, because I felt the strap on my ass. I tried to move my legs but the sudden movement makes them cramp. Mistress gave me only like 10 slaps and then she released the hog tie. My legs fel on the bed not able to move them. Mistress unlocked my butt plug harness and finally I was going to be released.

But Mistress wasn’t done yet, she put me on my back and pushed my legs. Before I knew it she entered me with her big strap-on. Whilst she was in me, she removed the hood but left the nipple clamps. I look at her still with tears in my eyes, she smiled and I could see that she really enjoyed what she did to me. She started to fuck me deep and hard and after only a few minutes, sperm was flowing out my cock. Mistress said no me first.

She pushed the strap-on all the way in me. Reached for her doxy and put it on full speed on top of her strap-on. The feeling was intense, the strap-on was vibrating on my prostate and Mistress her clit. Mistress only needed a minute and at the moment she was about to came, she reach for my nipple clamps and pulled them off. I screamed in pain at the same moment Mistress screamed in joy.

Mistress removed the strap-on and felt tired next to me on the bed. I was looking at her with tears in my eyes but also with intensely happy. She smiled back and said you are such a good boy, you get a treat from me. She turned on her stomach pushing her ass in the air and said you can lick and wank. Now I had a smile from ear to ear, thank you Mistress and I jumped on the floor to get my treat.

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Daily Service

I am now almost 2 months full time with Mistress. I can say we found our balance. That said there was some evolution. At the beginning Mistress was very happy that I was with her and let away with most thinks. The last 2 weeks she slowly is demanding more from me. I of course had a bit of resistance. Of course Mistress put me straight and I am know enjoying her control over me.

I am not a submissive by heart. I am a man of science and like things to be efficient. Being at somebodies beck and call is basically blocking and for me a waste of human resources. I could never do it for somebody else let along it is difficult to grasp that somebody would pay to server.

But I do like to see Mistress happy, when she relaxes and shows her natural dominance I find it so beautiful to see. The ease that she orders me around and uses me only to make her life easier is a form of art. I am a masochist, I would love to see Mistress with a whip in her hand all day. Whipping me for no reason at all. But what really matter is her happiness and in a D/s relationship it is all about her.

When I stop thinking of what I want and allow Mistress take full control, she relaxes and everything flows. When thing flows she actually whips me more often, not to punish me but to satisfy her need to own my body and mind.

Thank you Mistress for teaching me this lesson, I will serve you in this life and next.

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Free Onlyfans

Over a month a go Mistress told me to start my own Onlyfans account. Twitter is getting more and more silly about content and we have lots of fun thinks to post. Mistress account is of course special and paid. But mine is free and gives you a little more inside in my point of view.

My account was rejected time after time but last week if was finally able to contact the owner. I explained the intentions of my account and he was more then happy to approve it.
So now I have my very own Onlyfans account, please follow me, it is free!

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