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Daily training

Mistress is keeping me locked in chastity more and more. I was locked for 90 days this summer and feels like I just have been released. But it is October and of course Mistress locked me in honor of Locktober.

We where in Stockholm on the first and I was lucky that Mistress gave me a last orgasm before she closed the lock. The first week was fine, we had the Femdom Ball that was as always amazing. Soon after I left Mistress for a work trip all was fine.

When I was back in Eindhoven, the craving for Mistress became stronger. But she was ill and I did my best not to bother her too much. Luckily Mistress was starting to control me more. Not only my running in the morning, but now I have to use my but plug every evening for an hour.

The first days it was just fun, but now my ass is hurting a lot from the daily abuse. It makes me very emotional, the pain, the control, the horniness. All I want is more, I want to be close to Mistress, worship her, kiss her, used by her.

The chastity is working, what a powerful instrument is this for my Mistress. I am realizing more and more that I need to be controlled by her. That my frustration becomes happiness when she is happy. Thank you my Mistress!

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Daily cup of tea

Normally I try not to state my opinion to much on twitter. It is not my place, I am on twitter to support my Mistress. But during our holiday Mistress encouraged me to give my opinion to the daily cup of tea of Madam Poison. Every day she post a statement where you can comment.

I have to say I am starting to get addicted to this daily treat. I give my honest opinion to the statement of the day. I know Mistress follows every step I do online and she hasn’t punished me yet. I guess she entertained by the conversation that is going on.

So I would like to ask you to join the conversation. Twitter lately is an advertisement platform and not a social medium as it should be. So join the conversation and make twitter social again!
Of course always be very respectful to the ladies they are superior to us if you don’t agree it is more likely that you didn’t understand her point.

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77 days locked

On May 25th Mistress ordered me to be locked. As written in my previous blog I am used to be locked when Mistress travels. But this is the longest I ever been locked for my Mistress. The record was 48 days and we are now at day 77. I spent all that time except for 2 weekends without Mistress.

Not only does she keeps me chaste she also makes me work out and diet. I now run every weekday for 50 minutes. It is very difficult and I have to run very slow to keep going but I can now do it with two small breaks. The result of Mistress her work is very visible I now lost 7kg.

The chastity never becomes easy. I still wake up every night in pain I haven’t had a good night sleep for the last 3 months. I am so tired and have to keep myself together not to snap at work. At the beginning I felt very submissive to Mistress and connected but that is gone.

At the moment I don’t feel submissive at all, I found my routine, waking up early, run, work being to tried to do anything in the evening. I need all my energy just to make it trough the day. Mistress didn’t sent me to an other Mistress this time. I like the pain play but it also makes me miss Mistress a good whipping resets the mind.

Mistress is now finally returning on Sunday. My current project at work is in a critical phase so I couldn’t go to London to meet her. But on Thursday we will be united again. I have to say I look forward to it but I am also scarred, will she release me or will she just tease me till I completely crack? I don’t mind loosing it, but I am scarred that Mistress will not forgive me when I do.