Day in the Dungeon

Finally after 2 weeks apart I was back at the feet of my Mistress. As always she was more practical then me. I missed her so much, I wanted to hold her and never let her go again. But I was soon put in my place and had to settle with massaging her beautiful feet.

The next day I went running for her did my exercises when I went home, all to show that I am a good boy. But Mistress wasn’t that impressed I was just doing what she ordered. In the evening I went for a game of squash with a good friend. What an intense game is that, I think I almost died at the end. But it was good fun and it fits in my diet, so I will try to do it more often when I am in London.

Friday morning my body hurt everywhere luckily Mistress was kind and she made me run for only 20 minutes. I had the day off and was hoping for a relaxed day but Mistress had different plans. I had to clean the complete house, get parcels from the post office, make lunch, go with her to the dungeon because it was filming day.

Everything went different then I had in mind. It was difficult to deal with it mentally. When all is normal, I don’t like change in the routine, but when I am in chastity I really can’t deal if things are not going like I have it in my head. My replies to Mistress weren’t always that nice. Of course I always do what she asked.

A Mistress didn’t show up for filming and Mistress decided to film with me. A good caning so I would stop being a grumpy boy and focus again. She would have caned me any way for my behavior but like this she also gets some content out of it.

Mistress didn’t warm me up and the first hit got me by surprise, the pain was unbearable. Normally I can give the pain a place and deal with it. But this was so intense, I became scared and panicked. Mistress wanted me to focus and kept on hitting me, not even on full force, but I was gone. I tried but no way I could collect myself.

I failed my Mistress again, I felt so bad and tried so hard but it only got worse. Mistress gave up on me and stopped the scene. When I was released from the whipped bench. I ran to my Mistress kissed her feet and started crying, I felt so bad that I couldn’t take her beating and disappointed her. She sent me for a walk to collect myself again.

When I came back Mistress wanted to do a different scene with me. I was happy that she gave me another chance to show my devotion for her. In no time I was wrapped in cellophane and I couldn’t move an inch. To make it even better Mistress started to tape me up. This made my cocoon complete, it was actually one of the tightest enclosures she ever put me in. It always works for me. Finally my mind came to rest and I was focused and connected on my Mistress.

As soon as I felt her energy streaming to my I was happy and ready. I felt a sharp pain in my balls and the first needle went in. Slowly more and more needles found there way deep in my balls. The pain was getting extreme, but I wasn’t going to move or say anything after this afternoon, this was for my Mistress. But of course she was connected to me too and gave me a little break a little bit of poppers.

The break was enough to put me in subspace, not a deep one but a happy one, I could still feel the full pain but now my brain could deal with it. Mistress started to put the rest of the needles. The pain came and went, I was riding the happy flow of endorphins and love for my Mistress. I was in total bliss.

The removal of the needles went quick and with less pain then I expected. I wanted more, I wanted to hold my Mistress and I wanted to accept more pain for my Mistress but Mistress cut me loose and it was over. I felt again in her arms and felt for the second time tears coming to my eyes, this time not out of shame but out of pure happiness.

We cleaned the dungeon, ate a pizza for dinner and got ourselfs in a beautiful outfit for a little high end party we where invited. We met lovely people and had an amazing time and before I knew it, we where back in the dungeon.

Mistress sat on the queening chair and allow me to drink her pee. It is one of the biggest rewards Mistress can give me. Laying under her smelling her beautiful scent. If Mistress would allow me, I would be under her every evening whilst she watches television. Of course she wanted some entertainment en decided that this was the perfect time to try her new Erostek electrics.

Before I knew it a rubber loop went around my balls and the familiar tinkling went trough my balls. Mistress played with the settings and every time she upped to power I screamed deep inside her. This machine is so much more powerful then the others she used on me. She know used it to pleasure me, but I am scared if Mistress will ever used it on me as punishment.

After some more time close to Mistress it was bedtime and we both fell a sleep in seconds after this long intense day of pain and pleasure. The next morning, Mistress gave me yet another little reward, after 26 days in chastity I crave anal play. Mistress put the fucking machine on the bench and used it on me.

It is such a great and frustrating treatment being fucked by a machine. This time every time it hits the right spot it went out. Adding to my frustration. I did feel good but I do prefer being taking by Mistress her strap-on but this is way more humiliating and I guess that is what Mistress wanted today. Again time to clean the dungeon and then we finally we went home.

I taught it was over, but Mistress came down with my cilice and the pins are now digging deep in my leg. Every step I take I know who loves me, controls me, own me,… My Beautiful Mistress

Daily training

Mistress is keeping me locked in chastity more and more. I was locked for 90 days this summer and feels like I just have been released. But it is October and of course Mistress locked me in honor of Locktober.

We where in Stockholm on the first and I was lucky that Mistress gave me a last orgasm before she closed the lock. The first week was fine, we had the Femdom Ball that was as always amazing. Soon after I left Mistress for a work trip all was fine.

When I was back in Eindhoven, the craving for Mistress became stronger. But she was ill and I did my best not to bother her too much. Luckily Mistress was starting to control me more. Not only my running in the morning, but now I have to use my but plug every evening for an hour.

The first days it was just fun, but now my ass is hurting a lot from the daily abuse. It makes me very emotional, the pain, the control, the horniness. All I want is more, I want to be close to Mistress, worship her, kiss her, used by her.

The chastity is working, what a powerful instrument is this for my Mistress. I am realizing more and more that I need to be controlled by her. That my frustration becomes happiness when she is happy. Thank you my Mistress!

Daily cup of tea

Normally I try not to state my opinion to much on twitter. It is not my place, I am on twitter to support my Mistress. But during our holiday Mistress encouraged me to give my opinion to the daily cup of tea of Madam Poison. Every day she post a statement where you can comment.

I have to say I am starting to get addicted to this daily treat. I give my honest opinion to the statement of the day. I know Mistress follows every step I do online and she hasn’t punished me yet. I guess she entertained by the conversation that is going on.

So I would like to ask you to join the conversation. Twitter lately is an advertisement platform and not a social medium as it should be. So join the conversation and make twitter social again!
Of course always be very respectful to the ladies they are superior to us if you don’t agree it is more likely that you didn’t understand her point.

77 days locked

On May 25th Mistress ordered me to be locked. As written in my previous blog I am used to be locked when Mistress travels. But this is the longest I ever been locked for my Mistress. The record was 48 days and we are now at day 77. I spent all that time except for 2 weekends without Mistress.

Not only does she keeps me chaste she also makes me work out and diet. I now run every weekday for 50 minutes. It is very difficult and I have to run very slow to keep going but I can now do it with two small breaks. The result of Mistress her work is very visible I now lost 7kg.

The chastity never becomes easy. I still wake up every night in pain I haven’t had a good night sleep for the last 3 months. I am so tired and have to keep myself together not to snap at work. At the beginning I felt very submissive to Mistress and connected but that is gone.

At the moment I don’t feel submissive at all, I found my routine, waking up early, run, work being to tried to do anything in the evening. I need all my energy just to make it trough the day. Mistress didn’t sent me to an other Mistress this time. I like the pain play but it also makes me miss Mistress a good whipping resets the mind.

Mistress is now finally returning on Sunday. My current project at work is in a critical phase so I couldn’t go to London to meet her. But on Thursday we will be united again. I have to say I look forward to it but I am also scarred, will she release me or will she just tease me till I completely crack? I don’t mind loosing it, but I am scarred that Mistress will not forgive me when I do.

One month locked and counting

As always Mistress locks me in chastity when she goes on her travels. Chastity is not a fetish of mine but it makes Mistress happy and seeing Mistress happy is my biggest fetish.

I prefer using my cb6000 because it is the most comfortable during the night for me. But Mistress had told me before that she wanted me locked in the holy trainer. That is the only device I can wear without a problem at security when I fly.

The holy trainer safely in its place but that wasn’t enough for Mistress. She wanted me to go for a run every morning and send her the proof. I don’t like to run but I do whatever Mistress wants.

The first 2 weeks was just fine, I was really busy at work and lots of stuff on my head that the chastity wasn’t that big of a problem. In the 3rd week I was going to see Mistress for a few days. Just knowing that I would soon be with her made me hard most of the day and I was struggling with my chastity.

Being with Mistress and seeing her wearing my keys with pride is such a beautiful feeling. Our trip to Villa Dracone was amazing and enjoyed serving Mistress. I was graving for a good whipping and Mistress told me she was going to test me. At the end we had such a great time with Mistress Dada that Mistress only gave me a very small whipping. But it was enough to relax me.

Unfortunately our trip was only for 2 days and I flew back to Holland and Mistress to London to continue her European tour. Now we are a week later and I am struggling a lot the last few days. I am always semi hard and sleeping is impossible now. I am so tired so horny and Mistress is so far away. Nothing I can do then suffer for my Mistress knowing that she is proud of me.

MC Kalida

When I came home to Mistress last week she wasn’t alone. A beautiful ebony girl was sitting at her feet. I of course focused completely on my Mistress but I couldn’t help myself looking at her. I knew Mistress was training a slave girl but she always kept her hidden for me and the rest of the world.

But as always with Mistress thinks changes for the good. Mistress caught me watching and gave me a slap, that corrected the situation and Mistress explained that the girl was MC Kalida and that she was her submissive. But that I as a man are beneath all women and that I have to listen to her. if not she is allowed to punish me.

Kalida gave me a big smile and I knew at one point I would be in trouble. But she was all focused on Mistress and they chatted in a mixture of Portuguese and Spanish. I was tired and had to work the next day so I kissed Mistress goodnight and went to bed.

On Friday she came back to the house to get ready for CBW. I knew she was pretty but all dressed and with amazing make-up she was drop death gorgeous. At the club all the boys looked at her, was she a Mistress or a slave, could they talk to her? Mistress enjoyed showing her off and I knew it wasn’t going to be my night. No attention no play from Mistress. I understand she is something new and special.

From a distance I looked Mistress beating her with a paddle. Mistress went for it and Kalida screamed in pain and joy. I was looking with mixed feelings, I really don’t like seeing a girl being beaten not even in a bdsm settings, it just feels wrong. A woman should be worshipped, served not beaten. I looked again at scene and saw the beauty in it, Mistress was having a great time with her slave girl.

I did the only thing I could do and stepped back, gave them the space. I am sure Mistress will play again with me when the time is right.

Next day, Mistress told me to take pictures of Kalida for a new website I have to make for her. That was fun she is an amazing model and the camera loves her. Have a look at the results london black submissive girl

Looks like I have a new sister and as with all siblings it is difficult to share attention, but I know sharing is caring. So welcome to family Kalida, I’ll be a good boy I promise.